Letters from a Broken Man
As I sit and look across the table at you and look into your eyes. I see you.... deep into your soul the internal longing for happiness. It wasn't always this way, we once use to take long walks on the beach and strolls in the park. Now we just sit and look at each other wondering why have we stayed together this long? Not really sure I could answer that question. All I know is that I would give any thing to give you that sparkle in your eye, to see that smile on your face and feel your warm embrace. But as we sit here, I have to deal with my demons and you with yours. Marriage isn't easy but we will get through this and if we don't I hope we can be friends.
Sincerely letters from a broken man,
I still love you..
I kinda had to pause as i read that, some things people say are so honest that they are 'raw'. Umm. So blogs are like poetry. I think its deep and thoughtful. But it makes me not even want to be married, made me think about some things i would rather not think about - kinda a cowardly thought I'm sort of ashamed about - and it made me think about my ex-wife. It's sort of impossible, in most instances, to still be friends. Some things outlive their usefulness I think, there is an argument for the position that marriage ruins everything. Its like if it does not work out, or if both people end up feeling like -- yuck -- you lost a very very good friend that all you had to do is stay friends with. I'm starting to think marriage is not natural or something - it only works for some people. In my situation with my ex, I just want to never be around her again and not even acknowledge that that part of my life even ever existed - but we have a child. I'm too brave, and at the same time too afraid of the negative impact on my daughter, to do what i wish i could do and develop amnesia about the two of them ever existing.
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