What is love? L- O - V - E

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I often wonder if I have truly experienced that can't eat, can't sleep, or can't breathe without you love? Sometimes I am like damn I have loved and lost, lost and loved. Such a vicious cycle. I am not looking for that shit again. I'm not saying F$%^ love, but not looking. 
I do want someone to enjoy the good times with and a few bad. More good than bad. Cause nothing is promise to us. So we have to live in the moment.  Enjoy it, remember it and do our best not to hurt. 
Right now taking it one day at a time. I love and the idea of love. But what is love????

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